Slow Fade

It's been a crazy few days, and the next several weeks will also be incredibly busy. We are in the midst of finishing up my son's 10th grade school year - only seven more days to go!! The end of a school year is always busy. We are playing catch up here at the end, making sure we have all of his requirements accomplished before we finish.

Then there is all the paperwork to prepare...a portfolio of all of his school work. He also will need to be evaluated, which is set up for the end of May. Two weeks prior to this appointment, I need to send paperwork, credits, and writing samples to his evaluator. Only problem is, that is the week we will be in Florida, picking up our oldest son from college. Which means, the paperwork has to be emailed by next week.

Also next week, I have two books and a booklet that I need to write a book review and post on various sites. That means this week is busy with trying to get those books read. Then there is the chapters to read, and Bible study to prepare for next week too. In between there I have several appointments, and a writing assignment to complete, as well as a doctor visit.

I haven't even mentioned that we need to pack for our trip.... Right before we leave for the trip, we will be out of town, attending our state's Homeschool Fair for two days. Immediately following this, on Mother's Day we'll be starting our journey to Florida. We'll be traveling on Mother's Day, my birthday, and at least a couple more days after that as well.

Whew! I'm getting tired, just writing about all of this! :) Then there is the potential visit with the in-laws on the trip home. We have a time restraint that we are dealing with as well, since that weekend we are to be getting a new roof put on our house.....

I'm sure I have missed some things that will also be squeezed into these days. I know my husband has physical therapy. I don't know if I will have other doctor visits to schedule for my foot. Then once we return, my husband will be having a procedure to hopefully help with some of his pain.

Today I am trying to get caught up with laundry, and really need to look at some of my son's school work. But for some reason, the past week or so I have been very exhausted. I also have been dealing with headaches almost every day. I don't know if it is allergy related or what. Perhaps it is just too many things that are going on in my life right now. I don't know. I had hoped to get caught up with some things today, but am not sure if that will happen or not.

This morning I had my second laser procedure on my eyes, so now I'm dealing with blurred vision, slightly swelled eye, and some pain. I do hope to get the laundry accomplished, but this afternoon might find me crawling in bed to try and catch up on some rest. In fact, I could go right now......

After I had the eye procedure this morning, that will hopefully open up the channel in my eyes to allow the fluids in the eyes to drain better, which should hopefully alleviate some of the pressure, I was driving home with a very blurry left eye. The concern is that the longer you have elevated pressure, the more likely it is that I will develop glaucoma. I already am on drops to try and help with the pressure. I know that glaucoma can slowly creep up on you - you gradually start to lose peripheral vision. Once it is lost, you won't get it back, hence the concern to try and get things under control.

While carefully driving, a song came on the radio by Casting Crowns called Slow Fade. I believe this song was also in the movie Fireproof. I have heard it many times before, but was struck by the words of the chorus:

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

These words are appropriate for many circumstances in our lives. I first thought of my eyes in that my vision could start to fade without me realizing it. It's scary to think that I could lose some of my field of vision, which can't be returned.

But then I thought of other areas in my life as well. I can become so busy, that I allow things to crowd out my time with the Lord, or things that I should be doing. I think as Christians, each day we need to take it before the Lord, and ask for His help with our schedule.

I pray that my relationship with the Lord will remain red hot coals, and not slowly fade to dying embers. May I not give into that trap of slowly fading, but to eagerly desire each day to be in the Lord's presence. May I be careful with how I order my days.