Life in the Desert

"O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water." Psalm 63:1

"The poor and needy search for water, but there is none; their tongues are parched with thirst. But I the LORD will answer them; I, the God of Israel, will not forsake them. I will make rivers flow on barren heights, and springs within the valleys. I will turn the desert into pools of water, and the parched ground into springs." Isaiah 41:17-18

My life has been very stressful the past year. Our family has faced many things that I would never have thought or imagined. For many months while my husband was down due to his ski accident I was the one that carried the load when it came to taking care of our household. There also has been many times of emotional stress as well. Throughout this time I have continued to rely upon the Lord for daily strength.

Since November I have been going through some major health problems of my own. For whatever reason something has changed in my body and I now have a difficult time retaining fluids. No matter how much I drink, it quickly passes through my body and leaves me feeling dry and thirsty.

My eyes especially have been affected. I have had silicone implants placed in my tear ducts to try and keep the moisture in my eyes. I have noticed little help since this procedure was performed a couple weeks ago. I had a time recently when there was an eyelash on my eyeball and I was unable to get it off for quite some time because the eye was too dry. Most nights I wake up with my eyes almost too dry to even blink.

Each day I feel like I am in a battle to stay hydrated and that each day I lose a little more ground. I constantly feel dry and thirsty and very often physically exhausted. We still are awaiting word on some lab work that I had done last week. I don't know at this point if something is physically wrong, or perhaps it is just how my body is responding to all the physical, spiritual and emotional stress I have been under this past year.

The Bible says that even when we are in the midst of desert times in our lives, we still are to be seeking the Lord. He assures us that He will not forsake us. This is a truth that I am clinging to today.