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"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house." Matthew 5:14-15

"Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it." Matthew 13:45-46

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

How Do You Say Goodbye?

"Perfume and incense bring joy to the heart, and the pleasantness of one's friend springs from his earnest counsel." Proverbs 27:9

Monday was a difficult day for me. This week my dear friend is packing up to move to Georgia on Friday. My heart has been heavy as I have been anticipating this fateful day. Yesterday my friend took me and my sons out for lunch. Afterwards we walked around my neighborhood, shared our lives and prayed together. It was bittersweet for me because I knew that this will be the last time to exercise and pray like this. For almost a year now, we have been meeting about once a week for this way of staying in shape physically and spiritually. It has been such a joy to have a pray partner as well as someone to encourage me to stay healthy.

When she left I came into the house and cried. My sons each gave me a big hug. I couldn't help but ask God why. Why does it seem that whenever I get a close girlfriend, something happens and they end up going away. It makes me wonder, "What's wrong with me?" It isn't easy for me to open up to others and it seems like each time I do I end up getting hurt. I don't have the answer to that question, but I do know that God loves me and cares about how I feel.

Tonight I will see my friend again as well as two other dear ladies as we meet for dinner and our final Bible study together. I know it will be another bittersweet moment. We have been doing studies together for about a year and a half.

But in the midst of a difficult week I have had some encouragement as well. My boys have been sensitive to my hurts and have been quick to hug me. My sweet husband knew I was struggling and took me out for dinner so we could just talk together. (This was a sacrifice with our funds being so tight - it will mean cutting back some more on our grocery bill). We decided to head to Virginia for the weekend to visit my in-laws. This will give me a break from emotions, as well as something to look forward to as well. I praise God for the encouragement He gives when He know we need it. I also found out that I had won a blogging contest.

When Friday comes I know that I will shed tears as I hug my friend one last time (at least for quite a while), but I have the hope that even if we never see each other again on this earth, we will see each other in Heaven.

2 comments:

all4boys said...

I will pray for you, sweet Sister. I know that I have had the same thoughts you express, and I have lost friends over the years. Some due to moves, some to life changes. You're a wonderful, God loving woman, and while you may not know all the women who love you, rest assured that there are lots of us out there that do! It is bittersweet to think about saying goodbye this side of Heaven. I will be praying for you...for God to give you strength, but also that He will give you a new friend! Much love in Him, Jennifer Goodwin

Laura said...

I know how you feel and am praying for you. It's not easy to say goodbye to those we seem to really connect with. I miss those people in my life, but God is always faithful to send someone else my way to befriend. I value the quality of a friendship, not quantity of friends, as I would guess you do.
Laura