"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house." Matthew 5:14-15

"Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it." Matthew 13:45-46

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Quiet

On Tuesday my sons left for training for the summer as they both serve at a local Christian camp. My oldest son will be a senior counselor and the youngest son will be serving through maintenance. I have mixed feelings as I think about the summer. I know with the beginning of training, and then right into camps, the time will quickly pass. I am proud of them for being willing to serve the Lord in this capacity, but I also am missing them as well.

On July 23rd my youngest son will be boarding an airplane by himself to head to Los Angeles where he will meet the Youth Quests International team that will be traveling to China for 18 days as part of a summer mission trip. Originally my son, husband and another teen were to go on this trip together. Due to my husband's accident, he will be unable to go. The other teen opted to go on a different trip to China. So we are stepping out in faith, letting our 15 year old go by himself.

After my husband's accident I figured the trip would have to wait a year, until he could go too. But my youngest son was persistent. I knew that over a year ago he felt the nudging of God to go on a missions trip to China. As I was praying about it one morning I felt the Lord saying to me, "Can't you trust me to take care of him in China?" Gulp! I know that I can. So we have taken a leap of faith and are in the midst of preparing for him to go.

I don't always do well with it. When we recently paid for the flight from Virginia to California, I started to panic a little when I thought about my son having to navigate through the airport on his own, finding his luggage, and figuring out where to check in. But yet, I know that this is something that God is calling him to do. I felt another tug on my heart this week when we received his passport back from getting the Visa approved.

Finances still haven't come in for his trip. I guess I struggle with this since my husband will have some days of receiving no pay and only partial pay as he hopefully returns to work at the end of this month. I know that we have very little extra that we can support him. So I guess it means stepping out in faith that God will provide - for our needs as well as my son's needs.

I guess I rely on the truth that I have been telling my sons the past several months. I don't know what God has in store for our future, and how He will provide for us. But I am assured of one thing....I know that I can trust Him!

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